An Early Morning Update

I'd been doing so well sleeping lately that I was actually surprised. And then came tonight. Or I should say this morning. It's about 2 a.m. and Katelyn and I are both wide awake. My crazy dream almost jolted me to an upright position, but pure physics prevented that from happening. Instead, I did my flailing turtle-who-got-flipped-on-her-back dance until I eased out of bed. Now she's doing her water aerobics routine and there's no hope of getting back to sleep anytime soon.

My dream again involved me going into labor while Ryan was in class. He was taking an exam and the professor had decreed that all cell phones must be turned off. So it was just me and Riley and I couldn't get in touch with anyone. Oh - and did I mention that in my dream we all lived on a farm? I think Riley and I sang E-I-E-I-O one too many times yesterday...

I am nervous, though, about being here alone when everything starts to happen and that Ryan will be in a meeting or something. He keeps telling me that he takes his phone everywhere - even to meetings - and all I need to do is call. But Mom is in Mexico, my backup Mom, Janet, is in Mexico, my local sisters-in-law both work during the day and so does my aunt across the river, all my friends work during the day.... So, I'm having tons of fun being paranoid and my mind runs all sorts of scenarios while I sleep. And Ryan does keep insisting that it is just pregnancy jitters and that all will be fine, but apparently his reassurances are no match for my subconscious.

I’m excited about our doctor’s appointment today. I think it’s sometime around 9 or 10. I can’t remember anything anymore. Hopefully he will say that she is in the right position and getting tired of being cooped up. I know I’m ready to meet her and to reclaim my body! I know it’ll be a while before I have it completely back like it was, but this time around has been a little bit rougher on me than I thought it would be. And lack of sleep certainly doesn’t help. Ryan and I had always talked about having three, but after this time around... well, I couldn't imagine trying to keep up with two and having one on the way. We're still discussing everything and aren't going to do anything permanent to "lock the door and throw away the key," but we are going to close that door for a while.

I got an email earlier in the week from Stephanie checking on me and offering help if I needed any. I had said that I think I’ll need most of the help after Katelyn gets here, but depending on how long I’m awake now, I may be giving her a call so I can take a nap sometime this afternoon! After our doctor’s appointment, Riley and I have some errands to run so I’m sure he’ll take his nap in the car and since Ryan is going with us, I’m sure he’ll be a little later getting home.

I’m going to try going back to sleep now… Katelyn has calmed down a lot quicker than I thought she would.